What scares me.

Hello all...
I have been kicking around this forum for over a year, since before I actually had the surgery.
There have been times in the past months when I have been hesitant, apprehensive and yes scared.
But now I have to face a fear that I didn’t think about before.
Emilia (my girlfriend fiancé, wife whatever label you have) has started here 2 week liquid diet in preparation for a March 23 surgery date.

Side note here:
She is not having Dr.Buchin do the surgery, for whatever reason she has decided to take a different route. This is not the purpose of this posting.

Anyway as I was saying I now have something different to worry about. And it’s making me crazy!

It’s distracting.
It’s worrisome.
All the craziness that most of us went thru post op is being relived again in our household.
And most of all the general ease that I felt right up to the morning of the surgery (oh my god that morning I wanted to run as it all became real) is gone. I’m worrying about here more than I worried about myself.
What makes it worse is that I really really wish she were flying on the airlines that I took and that I trust. (Airline is code for our doctor).

Even at this point in time stress really affects the way my pouch reacts to food. I was past most of the throwing up but lately I have been feeling funky due to extra stress.

I just hope everything goes well and I can be strong for her as she was for me.

For now I remain scared and will be so regarding her for some time I fear.

Wish us both luck.

Tony